it's only a dream

I am leaving!

2009-12-17T06:51:17Z

I am leaving!
_{_{but the fighter still remains}}

woooooooooooo

2009-12-04T07:06:54Z

my lower eyelid is swelling! I wondered why I suddenly have actually baggy eye.

hmm.

help!?

2009-11-30T23:12:20Z

I really need your help.

Here's the situation. I need to fly home as opposed to driving. driving would have enabled me to take walter home with me, but it's too high in the risk factor for me right now.
_{13 hours with walter meowing loudly in the back of my cold jeep? as he is just getting over his kitty cold? on terrible roads? with the engine light on? it sounds like a terrible idea and at this point costs more than me just flying on a plane for an hour and a half}

I need someone who lives in the area to take him home with them for the holidays. I will give you my eternal gratitude or grocery shopping or even just pay you a kitty sitting fee. I'm sure between friends handing him off he'll be okay, but I need a show of hands for anyone who's willing to do that for me. I'd suggest coming by to feed him at my apartment, but that's way more time consuming and a hassle. either option works, though, if anyone is willing to help in this manner even.

He does well with other pets, he has lived with big dogs and birds and probably other pets I am unaware of. _{his previous owner has a lot of pets D:}

I'll be gone from the 14th of december to the 14th of january, but caitlin said she will be back by the 7th about. I'm sure she's willing to coordinate with whoever can take him.

we would be ever grateful.

from off to onnnnnnn

2009-11-03T08:47:16Z

the music is reversible, but time is not.
turn back
turn back.
turn back.
turn back.

DEAR CAITLIN:

2009-09-13T23:32:07Z

I JUST THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW

LOVE,

WALTER_{/SATAN/VOLDEMORT}

over it

2009-08-25T07:25:38Z

kind of felt like this today.

_{not that just david totally explains the feeling. it's not only a feeling of burden but of so many other things... people and how they make you feel about yourself and your life and anything that has worth.
so basically
/too many words here
_{I tend to draw david when I'm not up to par emotion wise XD;}}

thank me lucky stars I have a random kitten to love on :c
_{/a random portal as well}

TIME FOR SCHOOL, FFFFFFFFFFOOL!!1

HAHAAAAAAA

2009-08-12T05:13:39Z

_{I FOUND ITTTT-T-T-T-T}

this just means I am a terrible person. what else is new!

HEY F-LIST

2009-07-23T07:07:50Z

I NEED YOUR HELP.

so I've been working on these little handmade art books on and off all summer... and I need to start selling them. but as I have certainly found out over time, my networking and getting my shit out there is terrible. if you could find it in your heart to get the word out, that would be sosososososos soooooooo appreciated, you don't even know.

_{/do you want one XD; lol}

if you're interested in either option here, let me know!! more info and pictures under the cut

I haven't gotten the actual art contents bound in there as of yet, but I've got the layouts and materials all ready, steady, spaghetti!!!

the big ones are 8.5x11, the small ones half of that.

in order to break even, I'd have to charge $25 for the small ones and $30 for the bigs ones (the printing on these would cost me as my printer doesn't go 11x17 for the binding on these D: UNLESSSSS I wait to print them in mid august at the school for cheap as shit XD we'll see... they look nicer on color laser printers, gotta say~)
and the bare bones books without innards would be $15.
_{that's just the materials, not even the foreverness of making them! lol}

ALONG THAT LIIINNE

they make lovely little planner type thingies~~ I've got the binding all ready and easy for anyone who wants them for something like that!
_{they're so fun to make that this is totally alright with me XD}

I'll also be selling single 8.5x11 prints for like... I don't even know, $2 +shipping? haha~ or is that so cheap that anyone would be like "you're so full of shit" ??? perhaps $5? ugh
_{I don't even know. but I do know that I need help money wise. I won't make rent without way too much parental interference at this rate... I only have so much left in credit on my card that I can draw from until my loans get to me... and male parental cannot shoulder this, I know he can't! he's bluffing, the ho.
_HELP}

I've also a ton of originals that I cannot tote around for long. so those'll have to go. unfortunatly, they'll go for cheap ass, hahahaaaaaaaaaa ha.

_{_{lol
this post took over an hour.
fuck you internet >:C!!!!!!

DUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE AND I NEED TO SOMEHOW GET SOME MONEY SO THAT I CAN GET
THISSSSSSS:
http://cgi.ebay.com/STAR-TREK-SPOCK-Wall-Stickers-5-Mural-Room-Decor-Decal_W0QQitemZ390064545139QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item5ad1a89d73&_trksid=p3286.c0.m14&_trkparms=65%3A12%7C66%3A2%7C39%3A1%7C72%3A1205%7C293%3A2%7C294%3A50
OH MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
I NEED THIS
I REALLY DO
OH MY LORDDD-D-D-D-D-D-D-D-DDDDDD DREAMS WILL COME TRUE BECAUSE OF THIS THING
I MEAN IT}}

FAX'D

2009-07-09T07:16:47Z

_{in the name of caitlin, amen.}

zevon times

2009-06-08T08:07:43Z

loob a loob.

things started out promising, a little hope in me hart

... got a little worse (his face what?)

then it got ugly

and then texture vomit. yup. go me.

... huh. dunno how I feel about it overall XD but zevon! but lame markerwork/relying too much on textures... durp.

I've got good file sizes of any step if anyone wants to interject and make it better.
(but who likes star trek fanart anyway? lolllllllololololol)

D-D-D-D-DAYYYYYY

2009-06-06T08:21:23Z

_{and still thanking his lucky stars that he's alive}

not just a day of letting yourself mourn all those who were lost, but a day to be grateful to all those alive and thank them for what they managed to do.
_{you know, stop the axis powers, free some repressed.
the small things count.}

so thanks for making it through this flavor of hell to tell the tale.

COPY PASTE FROM DA AHAHAHAHAA
so tired
oh man
more on this later

hedwig to enterprise

2009-05-25T02:34:22Z

finally saw the new star trek movie. chicka YEAH. a couple of chicka no's in there, but enough yeah! to compensate. something in it that I think I shouldn't give away makes it alright and not a sucky fail, star trek universe wise. until I found out, I was pretty annoyed the whole first half of the film, goddamit kirk's dad did NOT die and kirk was NOT a huge badass growing up.
rawr.
spock was still hot, so hedwig approval commences.
the filming and soundtrack were badass. stylistically, the filming did lean toward a more star wars feel, but I find it was more of a happy medium. I dunno, it's like they tried something different and it paid off c:
_{minus the freaking light glares all over the place. maybe they were too cheap to make everything perfect so they thought a strategically placed lens flare would help. uh-huh. and so does only using the burn tool. cool at times, stupid all the time.}

I'm home in missouri! I live in a dark basement! I'll get photos soon and share, it's actually pretty cool for what it is. the house settles really loudly and annoyingly :| it's doing it right now.

so.

it's time I share the abomination XD
lolmonday

more updates later, when I'm not freezing and ready to run upstairs into warmth and company.

oh keyboard cat

2009-05-19T07:29:53Z

http://playhimoffkeyboardcat.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJ5w4MkFofc&feature=channel_page

LOL TUESDAYYYYYYYYY
_{insert deep reflections on the semester and it's sudden change to summer}

GAH HAH HAAAAAAH bruuuhaha?

2009-05-10T07:04:45Z

_{wow, that is not black... whatevs XD}

I am so fucking pumped about this.

holy shit.

having so much fun here. watch me spell shit wrong.

somehow this came out to be 27 pages long? AHAHAHAHAhewantedfourpagesXD
_{go me}

... printing this will cost me D: I am going black and white when I can, boy oh boy.
_{so good luck to me to get it all organized for print? and somehow I will manage to do this shit with the SB staff, whiiiich I hate doing, lord. hopefully it's someone I know :c}

TRA LA LAAAAA

2009-05-08T20:25:00Z

and I thank yer purdy swell~

...

HOORAY FINALS
2.5 TO GO
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

P.S. I LOVE SIERRA <333333333333333333

AUGHHHH

2009-04-29T15:56:42Z

OBAMA'S AT MY HIGH SCHOOL TODAY
WAUUUGHHHHHHH
THIS IS SERIOUSLY MY BACKYARD. I lived behind the schoooolllllllllllllllllllllllllllll so jealous that I can't even watch it on a tv right now ;n;!!!

...MY FRIEND JUST UPDATED FACEBOOK SAYING SHE CAN SEE MY BAND DIRECTOR STANDING BEHIND OBAMA RIGHT. NOWWWWWWWWW.
_{this coupled with watching that penis thing with sierra is a weird thought, but alas}

http://www.ksdk.com/default.aspx

OH THE EXCITEMENT

la-la-la-laffs

2009-04-29T06:38:01Z

so someday I will finish thisss. I really want to! larlarlarrr

some people are going to kill me?

so the plan is to make a mock playbill of a musical version of art school for my experimental comics class. I'm writing a few songs and possible making an audio tape of one of the songs with jacob's help?
BECAUSE
the main role is played by rorschach as he attends mcad and learns the ins and outs of art school. possibly titled "the real breaking point"
I predict that a good number of people will find this completely stupid, a fair number will laugh with me, and never count out all those indifferent 'mehs'.
_{I bet I explained that wrong.
haha.
ha.}

I feel like I should have guilt for this. but I'm more concerned with the fact that I should feel that way, rather than actually feeling that way.
I'm having a ball.
_{fuck people.
_{they are replaceable XD}}

now have some more unfinished art.

made on mini con day~ will I finish it?

sketch from zoo today~ it was fun!! I was rather whiny for a bit there, but this is the usual. why do I have friends, hahaaaaaaaugh.
we met a friendly mountain sheep that we named 'phillip'! he charged at us all scarylike! and then rubbed against the fence for us to pet him XDDDDD so cuuuuute~~~~~~ and then the sad little seal made dying noises very loudly as we watched all the animals live a life of boredom and left me feeling like zoos are really stupid.
_{not that I didn't feel that way before a bit...
baw :c}

made in comic chatacter last week... and more added at barnes and noble downtown! what a great view of the street from those chairs~~~ shall I finish it?

dunno why botherrrrr to post this

ideation class doodle

dum de dummalum

uhm de dummm

_{on another note, 'photo real' drawings bring back all those terrible memories of dragging through a drawing in high schooollll, nuuuuuuuuuuu... do not want.
why zak why
wrryyyy
and holyshit, finals are sneaking up on me DDDDD:}

sleep time!
hopefully I'll have an amazing dream like last night where I dreamt in comic panels? so fucking awsome
seriously
you know you're jealous

little children

2009-04-22T07:10:07Z

_mommmmyyyyyy

whatta film.

wow.

wow.

everyone was great in this!! it was made so beautifully... the opening shots of the house and the train noise and just a lot of things like that really made this click. I love the sound editing for scene transitions, the shot edits for the characters and their reactions!! so amazingggggg why am I awake I've got work in the morning D:
_{because it's amazinggggggggg duh}

it was beautiful and painful and awkward and ouch-wow-why-good-lord-these-people-whyyyy awesome.

and of course jackie was awesome XD the character he played really was a great container for all the crap that went down with everyone overall. a great role. he did such a wonderful job!
_{I've got more shots to share for when the internet isn't as slow as the hills :| gdamn, this is annoying I can't believe I even waited for the photo bucket and this page to load, arrrgggggg}

arrrrbarbarbarbar

2009-04-20T05:06:15Z

I read watchmen finally. all in a huge FOOSH, too. started saturday night, finished just now???

my brain hurts.

I'd write more on the matter, because fucking hell it is beyond amazing, but as it is. I haven't thought over anything for experimental comics tomorrow, so i'll keep it brief for now.

rorschach is awesome. but I knew he would be~~~~ and come on, he's adorable. always noming on something, smelly gross socially inept little bugger asking if his paper's in and stealing your sugar cubes.
baw.
and I dunno man, I think he and nite owl are total buddies! I don't see how they aren't. I see how nite owl can be alienated by him, yeah, he's a little hard to relate to. but dan was willing the whole time to get past that and partner up with him and whatnot. the weird way he talks XD
trying to comfort dan about hollis, hahaha. definitely one the best characters I've run into~~ a favorite right there. when he stared down at the whore neighbor's son was a really strong moment for me. just that one panel of his face... all that he must've been thinking and feeling in his weird truncated way. he may have supposedly given up his 'walter' self, but that interaction and the ones with nite owl seem to me to show that he's still in there somewhere.

and OMG THIS MUST BE WRIT NOW.
WTF dr. manhattan at the end???? he kills rorschach and nobody even knows!?!? *WAIL* he lies to ozymandias about it and then goes BYE DUDE *poof* so sad sad sadddddddddddddddd-d-d-d-d-d

but yeah, more later.
_{sleepy :'c

hopefully mary doesn't decide to talk to us about our papers or something tomorrow... I've got nothing XD;
oh watchmen. why so great.}

it's ending one minute at a time.

2009-04-18T05:30:17Z

I had a talk with caitlin today that got kindof INTO THE MIND OF HEDWIGGG
(without caitlin's bidding, in which I hate when these thing happen without prodding)
Upon reflection, I do not approve of these kinds of things. my contrary nature will flip whatever I say against me.

In short, my apathy is so apathetic that I forget that I am even apathetic because I don't even care to remember that I don't care.
_{if this doesn't make sense, congratulations! reality is threading itself together as it should
I say you have to give up.}

I really mean it when I say that Bruce Springsteen's "thunder road" gives me faith is whatever it is people have faith in. Or it dredges out my apathetic apathy
_{Which is a good thing.
This must be that best recording ever that Zac presented his challenge on (we all know you just wnated that AC DC song out of your head). I will angst until I get it right. But I have good reason to believe the fight is over.}

On another few notes here, I am drawing again. A confusing statement since I have been all semester, but not in the way one wants to be drawing. And I'm still not making sense. Feels good to be back, eh?
An unfortunate happening is looking at your art and going to yourself "I'm such a trend follower."
Seriously. I think there is a general aesthetic going down in a part of the art world that my art is trodding towards, and I do not approve. If I can look at a doodle and go "hey, this reminds me of... james jean and those something or other imitation people," then I think I am in a bad way.

I am no unique snowflake, boy am I telling you.

in other words
the music is reverseble, but time is not.
turn back
turn back.
turn back.
turn back.

uhm

2009-04-16T15:29:31Z

... so somehow this is scary to me.

_{~**~*GOD JOINED FACEBOOK*~**~}

why, hello there

2009-04-14T15:30:42Z

I swear there's more going on in my life than walter's chest.
_{but as a nomnom enabled reminded me, one can never post too much of a good thing XD}

aahhhbalalalalala

edit:http://liodain.deviantart.com/art/Just-Pleased-to-See-Ya-118793989
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
WAT
WAT
WHAT

HOOH HAH

2009-04-13T04:01:17Z

HAH

IT'LL NEVER EENNNDDDD

or maybe I lied and this is an art post.

yup XD
_{god it hurts to type and write lately... my arms! wtf. maybe I need to lift weights or something and get them in shape, because this is an issue. or give them a rest? but I can't 8D}

HAHA! nom-a-lom!

2009-04-12T22:02:59Z

you thought I was done!?

take that!

and that! buffymcbuffalot

_{~~*~*your move*~*~~}

_{they're both so cute here, bawwwww XDDDD}

_wiiibbble

_{baw XD! where's your harley?}

ommmmmnomnomnomnommm

a date

2009-04-11T06:36:51Z

with rowshack.

I dressed up all purdy and wore my new heels and wandered out of my hovel tonight to go to the movies ~~with rowshack~~ by myself to watch the watchmen again. I decided this zeal I'm feelin' must be unleashed.

so on second viewing, I was pretty much smashed over the head with the slashability of nightowl and rorschach. but then again, I'm sure portal got it all the way the first time through. All I thought the first time was "oh hey, I bet caitlin is thinking about how they can be slashed. you know, there's some handholding, crying over deaths. mask loving. us in there kinda sorta yeah "
_{hey nightowl. can I borrow your jacket? it's kindof colder than I thought...}

dude, the prsion segment? my favorite part of the whole movie. ROWSHACK'S LUUUUV SHACK.
he was all like super stealth kill without an effort and *looks coyly out from under eyelashes*
cue sexy killer voice
"your move"

BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWLALALLAALALALALA
*flips shit*

and of course, I wibbled at the end again.
OH ROWSHACK
WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO STUBBORN!?!
COME BACK TO MEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
_{but your little blood stain was pretty <3333 hurhurrrfdfsfj}

I like him too much XD
seriously, I think that if you get distracted when he steals nightowl's beans by the fact that half his face is hanging out, there's an issue.
_{but I guess all fangirls are filled with issues like this.
and I confess I remembered he was there from the first viewing and suddenly was curious how he was eating through his mask XD lawlz}

well then

until I can get my grubby hands on a dvd copy and screen-grab the hell out of it, here are some highlights from all that I could scrounge through love devotion~~

_{lookit the emo-y love tension here, bawwww XDDD}

_{... butterfly XD;;;;}

_{CHAINS WON'T HOLD BACK THIS LUUUUVSHACK}

WIIIIIIBBBBLE

...
...
~~*~*~BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~~*~*~~~